Self Respect and Suicide

I decided to brig this up because of some recent events .
This girl on twitter trended for awhile because of her sending a nude top half picture if herself to her boyfriend .
So apparently she two timed him and because he was angry the picture got leaked onto the net.
First of all , girls :
It should be instilled in your common sense to never send nude pictures , don't even take any , really .

It might feel good at that moment of time where by the guy would ogle at your body because of his raging hormones but , having to feel good about yourself at the cost of your own self respect , is it really worth it ?

I feel for that girl , it is her fault for being stupid and unfaithful but at that age when you're going through puberty and you're trying to grow up and be an adult , you would tend to do things that you shouldn't have done , the adolescent brain has yet to develop and that might be one of the reasons why she is not matured enough to think for herself yet .

That guy who posted it up : I hope you feel good taking revenge . How would you feel if she couldn't take it and committed suicide because of shame , would it satisfy your hatred and sadness or whatever you were feeling when you posted the picture up on the net ?

Moving on to suicide ..

It's a crime to do this in Singapore .

Coming from a person suffering from depression , I have always felt like shit whenever someone says that when a person threatens or say that they want to commit suicide , they are just seeking attention .
Yep , they are . But is it all negative attention ?
It might be a cry for help ; to have a person's life to be pushed to the limit whereby they don't even want to live anymore , there must be something that makes them feel that way , nobody in the right mind would just want to die so badly for no reason right ?

For me I am a common case , typical girl who gets hurt by a relationship and wants to end her life because she feels that nobody loves her .
There's this one time one of my bestfriends was quarreling with her boyfriend and it was so bad that she climbed over the railing and wanted to jump down from the 8th floor , luckily that guy pulled her off and she didn't .
He thought that she was doing it just to seek attention and make him feel bad just so they wouldn't fight anymore , that wasn't anywhere near how she felt . She was feeling so hurt she couldn't get her mind straight that she wanted to jump . I would have never blamed her for feeling that way . It is very common for girls to be too overwhelmed by emotions and do things on impulse according to how we feel.

When I was suffering from depression, it was hell for the first 5 years. I had no confidence in myself because of what my mother constantly said to me , that I'm ugly, stupid, I should just die, I don't deserve to live and she regretted giving birth to me . Up till now she still says that from time to time . I used to cover my face with my fringe because I thought that nobody should see my face . I got hurt by guys whom I felt alot for , they always say this "I won't be like that other guy who hurt you " and then they do . LOLOLOLOL so usually I had nobody to turn to except my boyfriend or my friends .

So anyway ,
I used to self-mutilate because I was sad and angry at myself and many times I wanted to commit suicide because I was hurt by my mum and things that people do to me. I have got to say that I grew out of it after awhile because I kept praying to God and I have some wonderful friends that helped me cope with myself .

Committing suicide to let go of yourself when you're miserable is a way of escaping your life , I feel for those who have died because of the agony they were living in ,  I know a few who had passed on miserably .

For people who made someone feel so bad about themselves that they want to escape their lives because they hate it so much , I hope you feel at least a sense of guilt because you contributed to the reason why they chose to die instead of looking forward to the many happy things that life could bring them and make them treasure it more .
A cry for help is never attention seeking , stop saying that . You'll never know what that person is actually feeling inside or what he/she is thinking of .

For those who use suicide as an excuse to get out of shit , fuck you , stop it . You're making people not believe in other people who really feel that way , it works like " the boy who cried wolf"

And for those who are living in despair , don't give up . You'll never know what life would bring when you live on , there are possibilities of your life getting better , don't eliminate them . Find people who you can talk to , people who would understand , people who can council and guide you through because after a storm there would be a rainbow . Don't give up . There's always somebody who loves you , you may not know it but there are .

Note for Ahting : I hope you're better now , I don't know you , I won't judge you . But I really hope that this is a lesson for you , have more self respect for yourself and learn how to protect yourself .
Don't make it cheap for guys if you want them to treat you like a lady . All the best . (;